Starting Over

At thirty-six I thought I had life figured out. I had a career that I was proud of, a husband who adored me, three dogs, and what felt like the perfect life. Vacations, friends, parties, life was playing out exactly as I had dreamed it would. Life was good. Then, in one single moment, life as I knew it would change forever.

We go through life feeling like we are in control. We make each decision as if we are trying to guide the path life will take. We are fooled into thinking that we can actually determine the outcome with the choices we make. If that were the case, my husband would still be here to finish all of the things he left undone. It turns out that it is not the case, and for now, I am left behind to figure out what life is supposed to be for me, a young widow.

Since his passing, life has been full of ups and downs. I would like to share some of my thoughts and experiences during this time. Some are funny, some are enlightening, and some are down right uncomfortable to talk about. What matters, is that I am still here, living, even happy, something I didn't think would be possible a year ago. I am Christi, I am a widow, and this is my journey.